Book Review: You Did Nothing Wrong by C.G. Drews

My thanks to Netgalley, St. Martin's Press and C.G. Drews for the eARC of this book in exchange for a review.

This is my first book by C.G. Drews and I'm still reeling from this story. The reveals, the twists, the people in this story. The author's note said something about this story may make you feel wretched and yes, I think that is the word for the effect this book had on me. It made my stomach turn and mouth twist and I wasn't sure what it would come to and then that ending came out of nowhere and now I'm not sure where I stand with this book. Would I read it again? I don't think I would. Would I recommend it to other readers? I would, if you are a fan of psychological suspense and if you read the trigger warnings very very carefully.

You Did Nothing Wrong is about Elodie and her autistic son, Jude, and their life in America with Elodie's new husband Bren. Bren has moved them into his childhood home that he is renovating and Elodie is expecting a new baby. Elodie has everything she has always wanted and is looking forward to her new life and everything that comes with it. Then Jude tells her that the house is talking to him, that he can hear things in the walls and that everything done to the house to repair it is actually "hurting" the house. Elodie doesn't want to believe her son but something about the house is starting to put her on edge. Elodie can't tell if it is the house or her son that is making things difficult but as her past comes back to haunt her, Elodie has to put things together and save her family before it is too late.

There are so many different threads to the plot of this book and some of them can't be discussed because of the reveals they have for the overall storyline. The idyllic new family life for Elodie gives me the impression of that saying "the grass is always greener" because as much as Elodie wanted this perfect family life, the reveals about who she was as a person and her son and her husband shows that a perfect family life is never what it seems. The use of the house and it's renovations mirrored the life that Elodie has created and I'm still making connections with different points of the book and I really hope I can put it to rest in my head soon. The circles it has made me spin makes me think of other haunted house stories and this book definitely fits in with its peers. At the same time, the punch it packs hits that much more in my gut and I think it is fair to say it will haunt me for some time.

Elodie. Oh dear, what can I say about this woman? I wanted to like her but good grief, I think I wanted to strangle her more. Her husband Bren was just as impossible of a character for me to like, and the pair of them not only deserved each other, but they left me feeling conflicted about everything that happened in the book. The only character I was truly on the side of was Jude, who reminded me of so many people I know. I wanted to drag this child away from this house and take care of him. I wanted to hurt everyone who laid a finger on him, I wanted to help him feel safe and encourage him to thrive and I hope this child gets everything he needs and wants for the rest of his life. Everyone else in this book can go take a long walk off a short pier.

In the end, I liked this book enough to finish it, even it was just to say that I finished it because so much of it didn't sit well with me. I wanted to go on a crusade and hurt so many people in this book and when many of the reveals hit, I only thought that they got what they deserved. The images of this book will stay with me for a long time as my dreams last night can attest. Seriously, I woke up in the night and put my hand on the wall, thinking I could hear my house breathing and needing to assure myself that it was only in my head. I managed to resist the urge to run to my kids' rooms to check on them but I did keep their monitor right next to my pillow at max volume. I liked this book for what it is, an examination of family and motherhood that made my skin crawl. I'll read more books by Drews soon, as I have copies of Don't Let the Forest In and Hazelthorn already on my shelves. But this book left a bad taste behind and I wish I could go into this world and wreak havoc on everyone that deserved it.

And please, read the trigger warnings. I can't emphasize that enough.

Rating on my Scale: 5 Stars. It was good, I wanted to like it. I'm sure there are a lot of people who can handle the triggers in this book better than I could and all the power to those readers. For me, I'm convinced to read more Drews books, so at least there is that. 

Book Review: The Fox and the Devil by Kiersten White

My thanks to Del Rey, Random House Worlds, Inklore and Kiersten White for the eARC of this book in exchange for a review.

I read my first book by Kiersten White back in 2010. I had to look up the year because while I remembered the book, I could not remember what year it was that I'd read it. And then I stared in wonder at the amount of books on White's list of publications because wow, okay, I have some reading to catch up on.

I have consistently gone back to White again and again over the years. I always end up loving the worlds created, the consistently strong leads, the intriguing plots. I have a large amount of her works and have always enjoyed the new imaginings for characters seen in other works (And I Darken and The Dark Descent of Elizabeth Frankenstein come immediately to mind). So when I got the chance to read The Fox and The Devil, I knew what I expected to see. And yet, this book stands out even more than usual because I LOVED this book. If I had written this review a couple of days ago, it would have been filled with exclamation points and heart-eyed emojis and so many entreaties to buy this book because I could not stop talking about it. As it stands, I'm still loving this book but I think I can logically explain exactly what impressed me so much about this story in a way that will hopefully get readers interested in reading it as well.

Fingers crossed.

The Fox and The Devil follows Anneke Van Helsing, and her obsession with catching the woman she found standing over her father the night that she found her father murdered in his study. Anneke has spent years studying and becoming a well-recognized detective, to the point that the police call her in to consult on cases that they can't explain. During her work, Anneke begins to make a connection between the victims of certain gruesome, horrifying deaths, recognizing a pattern that links these deaths across the map. She puts together a team of her own detectives, determined to find this serial killer, believing it to be the woman she has never been able to find. As the years pass with her team trying to find the killer before they strike again, Anneke starts to receive letters from her mysterious obsession, signed Diavola, or devil. The pair are playing a game of cat and mouse and Anneke is determined to win, no matter what the cost. Then Anneke begins to make connections between her investigations and her father's work, making Anneke start to question the world that she thought she knew and understood because the creature she is hunting may actually be a monster.

The overall plot of the book was enough to catch my attention and keep it focused, making me wish I could read faster because with the holiday, there was always something coming up to drag me away from this story. I was invested in the story about a young woman determined to find the woman she thought was responsible for her father's death. As the story developed, I was entranced with how the story expanded to include so many other victims, so many other ideas and revelations, that my mind was constantly trying to make its own guesses as each page turned. However, for the most part of this book, I was admittedly believing this would be a solid 4 star read because I could not see how the threads of the obsession were going to conclude. Then it happened, this one solid moment of WAIT, WHAT?, that made me stop in my tracks for a split second before my mind restarted and I started laughing because oh wow, she got me, I fell for it, and then the plot was so much more than I thought it would be and this book became an instant favorite. Seriously, that moment made my stomach drop, my heart skipped a beat, that kind of feeling just overtook my senses and then when it all came together, I could not stop CACKLING because when a book manages to make me stop in my tracks, I am instantly in love. The fact that it took the whole of the book for me to get to that point proves that White has become a force with her writing and now I'm determined to read more books of hers.

Anneke, sweet Anneke, I loved this young woman. For a while, I was a little dismayed at how she obsessed over the serial killer plotline because of her idea of vengeance but as the book continued, I loved how she became more, the way she fought back against the ideas that would keep her penned in and made people respect her. I loved how her worldviews were constantly forced to change and how yes, she fought it at first but then she would shift and evolve and I can respect a woman who takes the time to change her beliefs and transform herself into something more. I loved her team of detectives which included her best friend David, a fellow detective and former flame; Maher, a photographer, and Inge, the daughter of her mentor. Each of these people became dear to me through their actions and their devotion to Anneke. I loved how David had challenged Anneke to solve cases that seemed to stump other detectives. I adored how Maher respected the women in his life and trusted Anneke because she was intelligent. And words cannot express how much I loved Inge, the youngest member of the team, a tour de force that everyone was determined to protect because she was their little sister and they were all of them a FAMILY, and I wanted to keep all of these people safe. I even loved the glimpses we were given of Diavola, and the reveals that were given of her current existence and the life that led her there made her so intriguing, I just wanted to see more of her as the book went on. Even side characters were given enough to make me care about their stories, from the victims we were given glimpses of to coworkers at the police station that wanted to work with Anneke and her team. I don't know if there are plans to expand on this world but if there ever is a book focused on this team, I would be first in line to read that story.

Books that focus on obsessions sometimes have the tendency to become a little one note and I'm happy to report that this book becomes so much more than a story about one woman's quest for vengeance. It is also a story about believing in yourself, because while Anneke does have confidence in her abilities as a detective, she also has to believe in herself as a woman worthy of the connections she has made, the people she inspires with the cases she solves. It is a story about found family, and how important it is to surround yourself with people who will love all of you all of the time. The obsession is the focus for a while but it is everything else in this book that elevates it for me and I'm so happy with the end result. I want to delve into the cases and the details about the serial killer but a lot of my enjoyment of this book is all the little asides that White included to expand this world and I don't want to spoil the experience for future readers.

If you are a fan of Kiersten White's books, The Fox and The Devil is a very respectable read. I want to go back and read it again as soon as I get my copy next year. I want to read everything else I already have on my shelves by Kiersten White AND start collecting everything I don't already own. First up on the list is to start Lucy Undying. I'm hoping it is as brilliant as this book and might even be connected to this book. I can't wait to see any connections I missed while reading this release and here is me crossing my fingers that White has more plans in the making for this world. If this is your first time trying out White's work, I hope you are as enthralled as I was with this story.

Rating on my scale: 10 Stars!!! Seriously, that reveal still makes me giddy. I immediately went onto my group chat of fellow readers and told them how I fell for something that I logically knew wasn't right but it still got me. I hope so many readers come to this book and end up loving it like I did. And then I hope they read other books by White as well.